Well, it's been a while since I've posted anything. Mainly because I was busy with the Chinese New Year celebrations, my studies and other who-knows-what stuff. What triggered mii to my addiction to the keyboard was (argh! Still angry at the thought of it) the pure hippocrisy and attitude of a person towards the people among the latter. Are they actually Naughty or Nice?
Nevertheless, friendship was to be built on a concrete base of understanding, tolerance and acception. In my life, I've had seen for myself people of all characters, uniqueness and flaws all together, but there are of some that still bugs mii no matter how much I try for myself to tolerate them. Not to be pointing fingers at anyone, it is just a simple fact of life that some people just can't change no matter how much people try to help. Are they confused? Are they lost? What are they seeking to regain happiness? Or is it hurting and bossing people around a sense of pleasure for them?
It's hard to judge a person form their looks, as what I did at the very beginning. To be honest, I even some sort of had the feelings to move on to another step at one point. But then, getting to know closer only made mii realise how dark the evil side of a human could be. While everyone detested at the character portrayed, I stuck with the believe that a person could change. There were no true friends for the latter, even if so, many of the 'friends' had hatred carved deep inside the core of their hearts for them people. Sympathy and curiosity hijacked and I soon found myself wanting even more to indulge their life, to understand what they think and how they feel towards those around them. Hence it started with the motivation to try to change a person. Many told mii that I would fail, and although I stuck to my believes, I did fail terribly. Not only did I fail, I was trashed by my own kindness, pummelling mii with all kinds of words and sent mii spiralling into my own black-hole of failure.
They say you'll start to miss a person only when you had lost them. Ignorance was my first reaction when my hopes back-fired. None spoken words, none eye contact, none communication. It was only then will I be treated nicely, purely Hippocratic! Then then comes a situation where you start to wonder what are you gonna do? Leave it or embrace it. Sadly though I came out too soft, and with the urge of some friends, I proposed a second chance.
Usually, second chances work out well, well it did actually for some time. But as you become too nice, the other starts to take you for granted, stepping all over your head, treating you like rubbish and what not. That's when you give in totally, devastated by the fact that some people are jut incorrigible. It isn't that they aren't just nice even a bit, they are very very nice these people, but it is just those words and actions that slit you right in your throat, slicing through your spine and crushing out your heart. You'll never suffer anything more devastating than the fact that they could at anyhow, any time destroy all your hopes and believes for the latter.
I've endured enough to be frank, and it seems nothing will work out as the latter has none of the words 'conscience' and 'friendship' in their vocabulary. Whatever will happen to these group of people is still a mystery, but this a mystery I would never want to get myself involved in any more....
* Be reminded that this article wasn't meant for any specific target, it was just an accumulation of my perception on how people treat each other in a way that presents mii with a 'food-for-thought' situation. To any party feeling offended by this article, I sincerely apologize before-hand. Thx! XD
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