Tuesday, 4 March 2014

All Of Me (John Legend) ~ Guitar Tabs





  Well, I'm sure by now many have gotten a tune in to this wonderful song, and although it excels best on pianos and violins, I guess it doesn't sound too bad either on guitar! Here's my tabs on the song, hope it suits well though. Anyway, happy jamming! :)




Capo 1 Standard D tuning



Verse 


Em                        C                       G

What would I do without your smart mouth

D                   Em

Drawing me in, and kicking me out

C               G                  D                     Em

Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down

C                      G

What’s going on in that beautiful mind

D              Em

I’m on your magical mystery ride

C               G                      D          Am

And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright





Bridge


Am               Em

My heads under water

D              Am

But I’m breathing fine

Em              D

You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind





Chorus


G

Cause all of me

Em

Loves all of you

C

Love your curves and all your edges

D

All your perfect imperfections

G

Give your all to me

Em

I’ll give my all to you

C

You’re my end and my beginning

D

Even when I lose I’m winning

                         Em     C           G

Cause I give you all, all of me

Em             C        G              D

And you give me all, all of you, oh








Verse

Em               C                  G

How many times do I have to tell you

D                      Em

Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too

C            G          D                   Em

The world is beating you down, I’m around through every move

C                 G

You’re my downfall, you’re my muse

D                         Em

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

C             G         D             Am

I can’t stop singing, its ringing, in my head for you



Back to Chorus



Bridge Change


Am             Em

Cards on the table

D              Am

Were both showing hearts

Am           Em                D

Risking it all, though it’s hard








Chorus

                 Em        C          G

Cause I give you all, all of me

Em            C       G            D

And you give me all, all of you, oh





And here's the song itself, this version featuring Lindsey Striling which, IMO one of the best to ever play those strings! 








Signing off:


Nickel Low CJ

Sunday, 2 March 2014

Eden: A sex slave’s story (Edited and re-blogged)






Wearing just their underwear, the girls line up with their backs to the wall, arms by their side, heads down, frozen to the spot. They dare not move.

Their captors walk up and down the line – picking them seemingly at random and tapping them on the shoulder – ‘You, you, you and you… come with me’.

In the back of a warehouse truck, they are driven for miles across the scorching Nevada desert until they reach a hotel. There, they are forced to have sex with up to 25 men one after the other.

This was life for Korean-born American Chong Kim who, at 19 years old, was sold as a domestic sex slave in 1994 to Russian gangsters and held captive for more than two years.

“The clients never came to the warehouse,” she recalled “That was just where we slept. There was nothing there but bed mats on the floor and we would just lay there.

“They would give us colouring books with fat crayons and we would colour. But then we would hear the knock outside the storage unit doors and have to all line up.

“If you were chosen, we would get in the truck and there would be a gallon of water between us. You could tell it was hot outside because it was made out of metal aluminium and it was too hot to touch.

“We were sweating when we got to the room and we’d get a make up bag and toiletries and they’d say ‘you have ten minutes to take a shower’. They would have lingerie laying on the bed.

“I remember sitting in the shower because it felt so good to be in water that I just cried. When I was done I had to basically lay in bed naked waiting for the customer to come in.”

About half of her clients were American and others were Russian but some had accents she wasn’t familiar with – they could have been British, Australian or European, she couldn’t tell.

“They all had one hour to spend time with us but most of the time they didn’t spend the whole hour, they just came in, raped us and then they would leave. And then we had to shower for the next client. That was pretty much our day.”

The traffickers would take up to 15 girls to ‘service’ hundreds of men in one day.

“One time, I could hear the screaming on the other side of the hotel room and I could tell another girl was being raped and she was screaming and it was really, really hard for me to concentrate.

“And when we got done throughout the day we would get so sore that I remember asking for a bag of ice and had to put it between my legs because it hurt so much.”

Sometimes the girls were returned to the warehouse, sometimes they didn’t. Any attempts at fighting back or escaping were met with brutal beatings and torture.

“I tried to escape numerous times,” says Chong, now 38. “I remember one time the warehouse truck stopped somewhere and we had to get out to get changed and use the bathroom and that’s when I started running.

“We were in the middle of the desert and I didn’t know where I was. The next thing I knew, I had what I think was a crowbar hit me in the back of the head. When I woke up, I was tortured. I was on a meat hook and beaten like a piñata. Other times they would bust both my knee caps or they would put me in a tub of ice naked.”

As time went on, she would witness as much cruelty as she was subjected to and she would regularly be transported with up to 50 other girls from warehouse to warehouse, state to state.

The girls were all ages and ethnicities, some having being trafficked through Europe or Russia before ending up in the USA.

“I witnessed murders, tortures, sodomy, rape,” she says quietly. “The youngest girl I saw there was just seven years old. They tied me down and made me watch her get raped by 12 adult men. It made me so sick to my stomach. I still see her face in my dreams.”

Forcefully injected with heroin, meth and cocaine and held in a dark, windowless warehouse, time ceased to exist.

“I never knew what time it was because we never had a window to look out. There were times when it would feel like forever,” she said.

“I turned into a puppet, I got tired of fighting back. There were moments where I asked for help and nobody helped me. The traffickers would say, ‘see you are nothing, that is why nobody is helping you’.

“We had no military guys or swat teams to come in and break down the doors and rescue us, that was a dream.”

Her only option was to gain the trust of her traffickers and rise up the ranks to find a way to escape.








“I felt that I would never get out and the other part of me was getting angry,” she says. “I kept looking at my situation, all the times I tried to escape I was unsuccessful. And so I wanted to know where were these people coming from, where were the parents? Why wasn’t anyone looking for them? And so the only way I thought at that time was to act like I was going to be a part of them so I could find out all of their secrets.

“I approached the head trafficker and I said ‘I could be the Madam, I am a woman, I can use my feminine charms and to manipulate and to get more girls. And I can help you make more money’.”

After gaining their trust, she soon found herself in the terrible position of recruiting young girls into sex slavery, just two years after the very same thing happened to her.

She was recruited into sex slavery in 1994 by the person she believed to be her boyfriend.

While studying Law at a technical college in Dallas, Chong met a man claiming to be a soldier in a bar who she knew as Keith, only later discovering that was not his real name.

She described him as chivalrous, adding: “He would say to me ‘you should smile more often you know’, he was very, very sleek. That’s what makes him poisonous.”

Estranged from her family, Chong was vulnerable and looking for her ‘Prince Charming’ and he manipulated this to recruit her, she says.

“It’s like a hunting game, they know how to hunt, they look for them, they watch, they observe. They’ll do a round of tests,: says Chong. “A man will go to the bar and he will say ‘who wants to get me a drink?’ and the first woman who says ‘I will’ without knowing him gives him the signal that she will do anything for him.”

After just two months of dating, he drove her to an abandoned house in Oklahoma telling her that he needed to help a homeless friend.

“I said I’d wait in the car and that’s when he grabbed me by the neck and said ‘you’re going to do as I say’. And my first thought was ‘what did I do wrong?’”

He chained her up in the basement and burned her passport and documents. There, she was raped and tortured before she was transported to the warehouse somewhere in an Indian reservation in Nevada.

“When I was taken to the storage unit and I saw the other girls, I was just shocked.” She says. “It was like a giant factory of children. And I literally thought I was in a different country because I was so Americanised that I thought it can’t be here.”

But when she became a Madam she learned about the scale of the operation and the so-called respectable people who were her customers.

“I learned about the corruption – there were politicians, judges, police officers that would buy a girl and pay the agency to keep quiet,” she says. “It scared me so much that I decided I need to run away.”

Her opportunity to escape came in 1997 when she was staying in a wealthy client’s hotel in a casino in Vegas.

“I remembered watching a James Bond movie with my father and he’d crawled out through the vent to escape,” she says. “I remember the vent being big enough and I thought ‘you know, it’s worth a try!’”

Making her way outside the building, a man pulled up in his car and spotted her escaping still wearing her lingerie.

“My heart was beating so fast,” she says, “I got in the car and took off my Stiletto shoes and beat him over the head. He was unconscious, I didn’t kill him. And I moved his body out and I stole his vehicle.”

For many years after her escape, she “lived like a hobo” fearful that her kidnappers would trace her if she used her social security number. After seeking help from a women’s shelter and with intense therapy, she slowly started to rebuild her life.








And today, mum-of-one Chong shares her story to educate law enforcement personnel and attorneys all over the USA.

Her advocacy work for victims has been commended by campaigners including Academy Award winning actress Emma Thompson.

But despite helping scores of victims, Chong feels emotionally conflicted about her time as a Madam working for the very people that abused, raped and tortured her.

“I worry about being judged,” she says. “Even when I was a Madam I was still being held as a slave. I never kept any money, I was being monitored all the time.

“There’s not a moment I don’t think about the girls, their faces, their tears I only hope that they were able to be rescued or escaped.”

Chong is working with private investigators and members of the FBI to give as much information as possible to help bring her traffickers to justice.

But the organised criminals, who were also involved in drugs, arms and money laundering, were clever enough to use false names and move the girls from site to site to avoid being traced.

But by telling her story, Chong is speaking up for all survivors of sex trafficking, she says.

“I have people who say ‘I’m sorry this happened to you’ and I say don’t tell me you’re sorry, tell me that you’re angry and you want to do something.

“There are so many of these men who come to different countries whether it is in the UK, South East Asia or America and their intention is for paid rape. And the woman’s voices will always remain silent as long as the law enables these predators. So we need to find a way to say ‘No more.’









Edited and re-blogged, courtesy from and hugely credits to Investik8 Wordpress.com. Human trafficking awareness, stop slavery!!!







Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ



Saturday, 1 March 2014

Let It Go ~ Guitar Tabs






  Hi readers! I'm sure many of you have heard many versions of 'Let It Go' from Disney's yet another masterpiece 'Frozen'! And yeah, this song has really touched the hearts of many from all over the world, certainly one to go down into record books after soundtracks from Disney's Tarzan and Lion King. 



  Well, it would seem late to post this now, but still better late than never. I've done the chords on guitar for all of you music lovers so that you could get it on guitar, and yeah it's kinda amateur chord-ing but still, I hope you guys could enjoy it! I've set it to capo 2 on standard tuning but utterly it's still up to you guys. Have fun!!!! :)









Standard Tuning

Capo on 2 




Intro:


G                    D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                        C

Can't hold you back anymore 


G                         D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                   C

Turn my back and slam the door





Verse:


Em                                                      C

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight


D                              Am

Not a footprint to be seen


Em                          C

A kingdom of isolation


D                                       A

And it looks like I'm the queen


Em                  C                   D                       Am

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside


Em                           D                                       A

Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I've tried





Bridge:


D

Don't let them in, don't let them see


C

Be the good girl you always have to be


D                                                              C

Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know


Csus2

Well, now they know





Chorus:


G                        D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                 C

Can't hold you back anymore 


G                             D

Let it go, let it go, 


Em                                      C

Turn my back and slam the door



G               D

And here I stand 


Em                  C

And here I'll stay 


G                  D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                     C

The cold never bothered me anyway





Verse 2:


G                            D                    Em                   C

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small 


G                      D                             Em                 C

And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all 


G                      D               Em                      C

Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breath


G                D                      Em                             C

I know left a life behind but I'm to relieved to grieve





Chorus:


G                       D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                    C

Can't hold you back anymore 


G                        D

Let it go, let it go, 


Em                                  C

Turn my back and slam the door



G                    D

And here I stand 


Em                       C

And here I'll stay 


G                       D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                             C

The cold never bothered me anyway





Bridge:


G                   D                 Em               C

Standing frozen in the life I've chosen 


G                        D               Em                  C

You won't find me, the past is so behind me 


G          D          Em              C

Buried in the snow





Break:


G                       D

Let it go, let it go

Em                                C

Can't hold you back anymore~~~~~





Chorus: 

G                         D

Let it go, let it go, 


Em                                      C

Turn my back and slam the door 


G                  D

And here I stand 


Em                     C

And here I'll stay 


G                        D

Let it go, let it go 


Em                                         C

The cold never bothered me anyway 




They called this giant snow monster 'Marshmallow'! Sounds cuter than it looks though! 




  Finally, the music video itself to compliment! :)








Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ

Monday, 17 February 2014

Stronger Than Before




Sometimes, we mature and grow as we learn to let go of things no matter how hard it is.

But never forget those who hurt us, they are what makes us stronger than before.

And when time comes that we look back, you'll see that they are just fragments of a broken part in your life.

Fragments that will soon pave way for a better, stronger path in your life.

And when that time comes, make sure your living better, happier and content without them.

That's the product of maturing and growth.

That my friend, is what makes us who we are today...







Signing off:


Nickel Low CJ

Friday, 17 January 2014

Broken...





Like an empty shell,
Without it's soul,
No power no fight,
No will to go.



Like a piercing knife,
So sharp yet so cold,
My heart it stopped,
It's stories left untold.








Behold!
It bleeds,
That dark murky red,
Staining its dull colours,
The heart's now dead.



Behold!
It withers,
That spirit of life,
Plunging into darkness,
Concealing even the slightest light.



Shall there ever be hope?
Shall there ever be light?
Only time would tell,
For now everything's broken inside...










Signing off with a touch of Emptiness:


Nickel Low CJ




Monday, 13 January 2014

Put The Glass Down




A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: “How heavy is this glass of water?”

Answers called out ranged from 50grams to 125grams.

She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.”

She continued, “The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything.”

Remember to put the glass down.






**Article adapted and shared from a paragraph in the Dalai Lama & Howard C Cutlers book, Thae Art of Happinness




Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ

Saturday, 11 January 2014

Back To Where I Once Was With Something New




  Two years now, a whole two years it has been since I've started off on this blog: Life, as we know it. And here I am again, sipping freshly brewed cappuccino, just the way it was two years ago. Who knew time would've passed by that fast, and oh, before I forget, Happy New Year 2014 to all my readers!


  Well, it just comes down to ironicy that I've started out my 1st blog post here in Starbucks. Much has happen in between now and then, at least to mii that is. The ever-changing tick of the clock has brought to where I am today. Being a medical student in my 4th year, time really is money to mii now. It never seems to stop, seemingly a glitch in man-kind. Preposterous some would call, as it shifts things back into the past with every second, creating 'memories' as what we humans called it.


  Instead of 'stalking' people from the seat of where I was this time (I wasn't stalking anyway in my last post, I was just, erm, observant), I decided to let peace descend upon my mind. It isn't everyday that I get to do this though. And soon enough, I'll be on my way home back to my hometown, a humble city of Alor Star in Kedah. When tranquility seeps in, thoughts flooded in unwillingly. All that I've gone through has made mii what I am today. Ups and downs there were, but who doesn't have them, right? Simply being fair enough to say so.


  Instead of dwelling on the past, I've moved on from where I was, I've changed (at least that I thought I changed). But sometimes however hard you try, there seems to be an obstacle, a hurdle too hard to handle, to get through. Some prefer on perseverance, while others give up trying. For mii, sometimes it just doesn't give having to try over and over again only to accomplish nothing. It deludes mii really. 'You fall down, you pick yourself up', but sometimes you tend to fall too hard to even believe the reason of yourself trying to stand up again. I mean, what's the use of even trying?! (OK, I'm getting into my personnel thoughts now).


  Anyway that aside, I've set some goals for myself in 2014 (this is the real purpose of mii hammering away on my keyboard in the wee hours anyway!)


1. Lose weight? Gain weight? (Well I would target a 10kg reduction, but at the rate I'm gobbling foods and stuff, I think it would be rather the opposite though)

2. Finish 4th year in style and start 5th year in confidence. (I'm enjoying my life as a medical student, day by day. Can't wait to relish on the opportunity of a perfect graduation from CUCMS now)

3. Bonding. (This is a time I think I really should spend more on my family and friends. My working days are soon-to-be around the corner, and I don't wanna miss out on the lovely bits and parcels of life)

4. Living with utmost content. (This has always been a problem for mii. I never felt content in whatever I do. It could prove a positive point in trying to improve myself from time to time, but also it might rear it's dark ugly negative side onto myself)



  You win some, you lose some. Here are some losses I intend to get rid of in myself:


1. Laziness. (Who doesn't have them, right?)

2. Binge eating. (I wouldn't call it binge though, but I did to scare the shit outta myself so I stop sometimes)

3. Lack of consistency. (Starting off well but leaving things dangling at the end is also a problem I'm facing, need to get rid of this a.s.a.p)

4. The trust in a relationship (It comes, it goes. It looks great, then it proves otherwise. It's always the same script, and I intend to get my head right this time, for this year at least. Sometimes, you get cut too deep that you heart just dies off. Having it die off is better, things end abruptly. Mine would be described as sclerosed, get it? I feel nothing, I can't react and it just lingers on there ~~ numbness. Can't eat, can't sleep, just like a walking zombie.)




  Anyhow, Happy New Year once again to all my readers. I hope you've got your resolutions ready and kick start this year with a bang! With warm regards, I wish all of you the best in life!! :)

**Thx Starbucks LCCT for the wonderful hospitality and coffee once again! How could I do without you?!




You can read the very FIRST blog-post of mine on Life, as we know it:

http://nickel-low.blogspot.com/2012/01/night-at-airport.html






Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ