Monday, 17 February 2014

Stronger Than Before




Sometimes, we mature and grow as we learn to let go of things no matter how hard it is.

But never forget those who hurt us, they are what makes us stronger than before.

And when time comes that we look back, you'll see that they are just fragments of a broken part in your life.

Fragments that will soon pave way for a better, stronger path in your life.

And when that time comes, make sure your living better, happier and content without them.

That's the product of maturing and growth.

That my friend, is what makes us who we are today...







Signing off:


Nickel Low CJ

Friday, 17 January 2014

Broken...





Like an empty shell,
Without it's soul,
No power no fight,
No will to go.



Like a piercing knife,
So sharp yet so cold,
My heart it stopped,
It's stories left untold.








Behold!
It bleeds,
That dark murky red,
Staining its dull colours,
The heart's now dead.



Behold!
It withers,
That spirit of life,
Plunging into darkness,
Concealing even the slightest light.



Shall there ever be hope?
Shall there ever be light?
Only time would tell,
For now everything's broken inside...










Signing off with a touch of Emptiness:


Nickel Low CJ




Monday, 13 January 2014

Put The Glass Down




A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: “How heavy is this glass of water?”

Answers called out ranged from 50grams to 125grams.

She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.”

She continued, “The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything.”

Remember to put the glass down.






**Article adapted and shared from a paragraph in the Dalai Lama & Howard C Cutlers book, Thae Art of Happinness




Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ

Saturday, 11 January 2014

Back To Where I Once Was With Something New




  Two years now, a whole two years it has been since I've started off on this blog: Life, as we know it. And here I am again, sipping freshly brewed cappuccino, just the way it was two years ago. Who knew time would've passed by that fast, and oh, before I forget, Happy New Year 2014 to all my readers!


  Well, it just comes down to ironicy that I've started out my 1st blog post here in Starbucks. Much has happen in between now and then, at least to mii that is. The ever-changing tick of the clock has brought to where I am today. Being a medical student in my 4th year, time really is money to mii now. It never seems to stop, seemingly a glitch in man-kind. Preposterous some would call, as it shifts things back into the past with every second, creating 'memories' as what we humans called it.


  Instead of 'stalking' people from the seat of where I was this time (I wasn't stalking anyway in my last post, I was just, erm, observant), I decided to let peace descend upon my mind. It isn't everyday that I get to do this though. And soon enough, I'll be on my way home back to my hometown, a humble city of Alor Star in Kedah. When tranquility seeps in, thoughts flooded in unwillingly. All that I've gone through has made mii what I am today. Ups and downs there were, but who doesn't have them, right? Simply being fair enough to say so.


  Instead of dwelling on the past, I've moved on from where I was, I've changed (at least that I thought I changed). But sometimes however hard you try, there seems to be an obstacle, a hurdle too hard to handle, to get through. Some prefer on perseverance, while others give up trying. For mii, sometimes it just doesn't give having to try over and over again only to accomplish nothing. It deludes mii really. 'You fall down, you pick yourself up', but sometimes you tend to fall too hard to even believe the reason of yourself trying to stand up again. I mean, what's the use of even trying?! (OK, I'm getting into my personnel thoughts now).


  Anyway that aside, I've set some goals for myself in 2014 (this is the real purpose of mii hammering away on my keyboard in the wee hours anyway!)


1. Lose weight? Gain weight? (Well I would target a 10kg reduction, but at the rate I'm gobbling foods and stuff, I think it would be rather the opposite though)

2. Finish 4th year in style and start 5th year in confidence. (I'm enjoying my life as a medical student, day by day. Can't wait to relish on the opportunity of a perfect graduation from CUCMS now)

3. Bonding. (This is a time I think I really should spend more on my family and friends. My working days are soon-to-be around the corner, and I don't wanna miss out on the lovely bits and parcels of life)

4. Living with utmost content. (This has always been a problem for mii. I never felt content in whatever I do. It could prove a positive point in trying to improve myself from time to time, but also it might rear it's dark ugly negative side onto myself)



  You win some, you lose some. Here are some losses I intend to get rid of in myself:


1. Laziness. (Who doesn't have them, right?)

2. Binge eating. (I wouldn't call it binge though, but I did to scare the shit outta myself so I stop sometimes)

3. Lack of consistency. (Starting off well but leaving things dangling at the end is also a problem I'm facing, need to get rid of this a.s.a.p)

4. The trust in a relationship (It comes, it goes. It looks great, then it proves otherwise. It's always the same script, and I intend to get my head right this time, for this year at least. Sometimes, you get cut too deep that you heart just dies off. Having it die off is better, things end abruptly. Mine would be described as sclerosed, get it? I feel nothing, I can't react and it just lingers on there ~~ numbness. Can't eat, can't sleep, just like a walking zombie.)




  Anyhow, Happy New Year once again to all my readers. I hope you've got your resolutions ready and kick start this year with a bang! With warm regards, I wish all of you the best in life!! :)

**Thx Starbucks LCCT for the wonderful hospitality and coffee once again! How could I do without you?!




You can read the very FIRST blog-post of mine on Life, as we know it:

http://nickel-low.blogspot.com/2012/01/night-at-airport.html






Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ

Saturday, 14 December 2013

10 Seconds





At those last moments,
You feel nothing but emptiness,
Your mind filled with thoughts,
That sorrow;
That sadness;
That imperfection.


You feel your insignificance,
That you did not belong,
Wandering upon strands of loneliness,
You came to succumb.








Off you go to seek,
Your so called freedom.
Struggled hard though within alas,
You took that final decision.


Falling falling,
That final 10 seconds,
Each a story to tell,
And thus it unfolds each of own reasons...








One,
You see those neatly arranged flowers by your bed. How bright they were, you've never noticed. And those loving pictures by its side, those laughter of family and friends. How could you have forgotten?


Two,
You see your family and friends grieving over your passing. Might give you some thought that people actually do care, but what's the use now? You're falling...








Three,
You see a homeless little boy down the corner of a street striving hard to survive. He eats, drinks, wears and uses whatever he could find just to keep himself alive for another day. Who are you to end such a blessed life? Shame descends upon yourself...


Four,
You see a poor old lady, selling matches on a cold winter's day. Neither does she complain, nor does she blames anyone for her stricken life. She lives in shackles day by day since she was born. Who are you to end such a blessed life? Shame once again, descends upon yourself...








Five,
Those grieving family and friends have gotten lesser over time. Each a life of their own, each a story to write on. Your story ended, and it ended in a tragic manner. You've thought people might miss you forever when you're gone. Think again, they have had lives to live on.


Six,
Shed a tear you may. The only persons still grieving over you day and night are your parents. How selfish and insensitive were you to make such a decision. Their own flesh and blood, now gone in just a blink, gone just because you couldn't think, gone just in that final 10 seconds of life...








Seven,
You see your little brothers and sisters getting married. Their happiness written all over their faces. Your heart smiles but you weren't able to share the blessings. What gives?


Eight,
You see in a more distant future, on the passing of your loving parents. Family members gather once again to grieve. But not you, no. Everyone was there to give their blessings, but where were you? And with your parents gone, will their be anyone else to grieve for you?








Nine,
The rain drizzles hard that night. You see a person, who looks just like you standing over the balcony. His eyes, a gleam in which you'll notice immediately. His proceeding actions in which you'll identify distinctively. What would you do now? Would you stop him?


Ten,
You've reached the end of your final 10 seconds. Your world its coming to an end. You've regret it but it would seem all but too late. A miracle would be needed, that aside you've just only come to realize ~~ Life is all too precious...








This is written in conjunction that suicidal cases have been vastly increasing in recent times all over the world. Be it due to academics, relationships or other matters, life is just too precious to be taken lightly. Hence, it is hope that through this, it helps give readers a proper insight of how improper taking your life would be. Enjoy life to the fullest. If you meet an obstacle, stand up to it and face it head on. In every cloud, there has to be a silver lining, Believe on that!










Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ





Monday, 11 November 2013

A Great Big World ~ Say Something

  Well, I just had to write something about this song! It's simply beautiful and soothing, meaningful as it is. Nothing much to say, just listen with your heart... :)







LYRICS:


Say something I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning love
Just starting to crawl

Say something I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you

Say something I'm giving up on you
Say something I'm giving up on you
Say something








  For those who would love this song on guitar, here's the chords! 




Bm                G                D        A
  Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Bm              G                  D        A
  I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Bm          G                    D         A
  Anywhere, I would've followed you.
Bm               G                D        A
  Say something, I'm giving up on you.

    D                A           
And I am feeling so small.
        G
It was over my head
                  D     A
I know nothing at all.

    D                   A 
And I will stumble and fall.
            G
I'm still learning to love
                 D     A
Just starting to crawl.

Bm                G                D       A
   Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Bm                G                  D     A
   I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Bm           G              D      A
   Anywhere, I will follow you.
Bm                G                D        A
   Say something, I'm giving up on you.


    D                  A 
And I will swallow my pride.
            G
You're the one that I love
                   D        A
And I'm saying goodbye.

Bm               G                D        A
  Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Bm             G                  D        A
  I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Bm           G                    D         A
  Anywhere, I would've followed you.
Bm                G                D        A
  Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Say something





Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ

Tuesday, 5 November 2013

Some Random Thoughts #6 (To Coke or Not To Coke?)






  Ever wondered why you feel lethargic and tired after a glass of Coke? Ever wondered why you had the urge to pee after well, a glass of Coke? I tried to avoid Coke (basically any soft-drinks in the market) since the past one year. Hard it may be, but you'll be surprised of the contents and facts about these drinks! 


WHAT COKE DOES TO YOUR BODY:-

1) In the first 10 minutes: 10 teaspoons of sugar hit your system. (100% of your recommended daily intake.) You don’t immediately vomit from the overwhelming sweetness because phosphoric acid cuts the flavor, allowing you to keep it down.

2) 20 minutes: Your blood sugar spikes, causing an insulin burst. Your liver responds to this by turning any sugar it can get its hands on into fat. (And there’s plenty of that at this particular moment.)

3) 40 minutes: Caffeine absorption from Coke (Yes, surprisingly Coke contains some amount of caffeine) is complete. Your pupils dilate; your blood pressure rises; as a response, your liver dumps more sugar into your bloodstream. The adenosine receptors in your brain are now blocked, preventing drowsiness.

4) 45 minutes: Your body ups your dopamine production, stimulating the pleasure centers of your brain. This is physically the same way heroin works, by the way.

5) > 60 minutes: The phosphoric acid binds calcium, magnesium, and zinc in your lower intestine, providing a further boost in metabolism. This is compounded by high doses of sugar and artificial sweeteners also increasing the urinary excretion of calcium.

> 60 minutes: The caffeine’s diuretic properties come into play. (It makes you have to pee.) It is now assured that you’ll evacuate the bonded calcium, magnesium, and zinc that was headed to your bones as well as sodium, electrolytes, and water.

> 60 minutes: As the rave inside you dies down, you’ll start to have a sugar crash. You may become irritable and/or sluggish. You've also now, literally, pissed away all the water that was in the Coke. But not before infusing it with valuable nutrients your body could have used for things like hydrating your system, or building strong bones and teeth.




This will all be followed by a caffeine crash in the next few hours. Want to know what happens after that? Check out what happens to your body after you drink a coke, every day for a long time.

Coke itself isn't the enemy here. It’s the dynamic combo of massive sugar doses combined with caffeine and phosphoric acid, which are found in almost all sodas. Moderation, people !




This post was originally written by Wade Meredith Daily health tips and adapted from Drug Information Centre: https://www.facebook.com/Druginformationcenter?hc_location=stream





To know about caffeine content on Coke, do look up here: http://www.coca-cola.co.uk/health/caffeine-in-your-can.html






Signing off:

Nickel Low CJ